Back to school

There had to be an end to the wonderful hazy days of confinement with daily routines perhaps repetitive, but yet predictable and bringing stability and comfort to our life.Well, this is now history. We have again four different schedules to follow: the primary schoolers have both 1 distance learning day (different one, obviously), they finish on school days at noon. In pre-school, the classes continue normally, every day, until 15:00. My toddler who returned to Creche is refusing to take her afternoon nap there and the consequences can be guessed: she is a completely exhausted ball of toddler the rest of the day. I am weighing the pros and cons daily: this was supposed to be a breathing time for myself and my husband after three months of 24/7 super parenting! Now it is time to open all my creative projects, continue the to-do lists or simply RELAX. Well, after the first week behind I find all of the before extremely difficult. I feel drained and exhausted, topped with feelings of regret for the poor kids who are themselves trying to adapt to the new normal. So we ended up bickering with my husband on what to do, should we keep the little ones at home or not. Should we keep all of the kids at home and continue in confinement mode and try to find again the balance? I try to keep it cool, breath through, go running, play tennis and practice yoga. I still have difficulties in keeping my focus on where it should be, on the present moment.