I
am a woman of principles, and as most women of principles I don't mind (at
all) sharing them in abundance with my surroundings. Furthermore, I have come
to realize yet again how incredibly difficult it is to "Walk-my-Talk"
- whether at work, educating my daughter (and husband) and especially myself..
Besides, there's no question that motherhood is an ideal trap for some major hypocrisies
to get ground.
One way Not to walk-the-talk is to do it Silently. In this case nobody
actually remembers your once vocalized principles and you're the only fortunate
witness of the hypocrisy taking place. The result should be an emotion of at
least minimum remorse (rarely the case) and a promise of a future
re-orientation.
More uncomfortable is the situation, where you have clearly vocalized
your principles, you've broken your own rules AND your audience recognizes
this. This creates a feeling of shame, multiplied by eternity in case the
witness is your own children. Then it is your credibility as a Parent at
stake.
Therefore I decided to take a stance and have a moment of honest auto reflection.
-I am not eating two warm meals per day myself and do snack in between meals. I even drink coffee taking immense pleasure out of it not to mention finishing the cookie dough bowls. With fingers.
-I too have bad days and feel like crying my mind out just because it does make me feel better, especially if I have an attentive audience :)
-I also enjoy discovering new places and trying out new things even though somebody wise tells me to be careful and not to touch and taste everything. Where's the fun otherwise!
-I too have mornings when I want to sleep-in, stay in my pyjama and continue to tell stories to Mr. Paddington.
-I too get mad if a colleague steels my ideas and presents them as his own. I will be pissed-off and do not want to share my toys either.
-I too utterly hate when weekends end, holidays end, chocolate cake ends..
Sometimes Mommies DO eat their own words.
